"‘Cause I am a sinner
If it’s not one thing it’s another
Caught up in words
Tangled in lies
You are the Savior
And you take brokenness aside
And make it beautiful
Beautiful"
-all sons and daughters
That's me. A sinner.
I am broken. I am nothing. I have fallen short more times than I can count.
But the beautiful thing about this is that where I am weak, he is strong.
His grace is sufficient for me.
And I would not be writing this right now if it was not for his
[beautiful]
[abounding]
[everlasting]
[powerful]
[freeing]
[redeeming]
[transforming]
grace.
My story is nothing special; it is simply a story of the love of God, and what HE is capable of doing.
I grew up like most Americans, in a Christian home. There has never been a time when I didn't know who Christ was. I always seemed to understand who he was, and what he did for me. However, most of my understanding (and my faith, if we are being honest) was through what my parents had told me. My walk was not yet my own.
After my parents divorced when I was 14, I turned away from God completely. I didn't care what he thought of me, or what I did with my life. I was lost, broken, and looking for anything to fill the scar left from my parent's divorce, and my Dad's remarriage.
My heart swelled with
[rejection]
[self-hate]
[depression]
[loneliness]
and
[hopelessness]
I turned to drinking, drugs, boys, and partying to fill my heart. My freshman year of College was spent living this life, and loving it. I finally felt like I was being accepted for who I was.
[But little did I know that I had never been further from myself.]
Redemption came in the form of a spaghetti dinner. I was invited by my roommate's sister, and little to our knowledge it turned out to be more than dinner for $1.00. It was the annual Navigator Bible Study kick off. By God's will alone, I signed up for a study.
After living the double lifestyle of drugs and partying almost every day, and then God's word on Tuesday nights, I realized that I had a choice to make.
[I choose him.]
And I never looked back.
And after 4 years, here I am, going on the World Race.
[What?]
So who is the true Jessiann? She is someone who loves:
[being a daughter]
[being a big sister]
[being a friend]
[being six-years-old on the inside]
[being an artist]
[sunshine]
[dance parties]
[singing]
[laughing]
[thunderstorms]
[the mountains]
[teaching]
[being silly]
[pottery]
[riding bikes]
[summer camp]
[kids]
[worship]
[all the seasons]
[aspen trees]
[wildflowers]
[sunrises]
[stupid you-tube videos]
[good music]
but most importantly…someone who is desperately, completely, in love with
[Jesus Christ]
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV
