“I wait for the Lord, my soul waits and in his word I put my hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than a watchman waits for the morning. O Israel, put your hope in the Lord for with the Lord is unfailing love and with him is full redemption. He himself will redeem Israel from all their sins.” {Psalm 130: 5-8}
[The Lord has asked me to wait.]
He has told me that now is not the right time for me to go on the World Race.
And it is so hard for me to say that. I know that I can trust in Him. I know that His ways are perfect and righteous, and if He asks me to wait, then He is asking me to do so with a specific purpose.
However, this decision did not come easy. It came with many tears, lots of heartache, and a lot of stubbornness on my part.
But the more I prayed, the more I asked, the more I surrendered, the more I knew that the God of the stars wants me to wait before I embark on this adventure.
Before I made this decision, I was completely overwhelmed and anxious about raising support for this trip. I had no time to invest in the fundraising process because I was so overwhelmed with finishing my last year at Colorado State University. Ultimately, I was going to have to do it all in one summer.
Now, here is the tricky part.
[I know with all my heart that God can move mountains.]
[He can raise the dead.]
[He can walk on the waves.]
I know that He can do all things, and I kept fighting what I was hearing because I knew that if He wanted me to go in September, that He would be able to provide all that I needed.
Even so, He was still telling me to wait.
Reluctantly, I decided to put my head and my heart aside and obey.
And something beautiful happened.
[A wave of peace flooded my heart.]
A huge weight has been lifted from me. I can now enjoy my fundraising. I can build relationships without being rushed. I can enjoy my first summer after graduation without any stress.
[I can breathe.]
And the most beautiful thing is that I am still going. I am still going to travel this world, spread the love of Christ, and embark on this amazing adventure that He has planned for me. This September is just not the right time.
Right now, my plan is to find a teaching job for this coming school year, save my money, and leave for the WR on a July 2013 route. It has been amazing to see the doors that He is already opening for me since I made this decision.
I trust that the Lord’s timing is perfect.
I know that this was His plan all along, and I can’t wait to see what he does. And I am so thankful for the blessing of His peace that he has showered on me during this time.
I have never felt such amazing peace and trust before. I know that He is holding my life, guiding my steps, and I have absolutely nothing to fear.
Please be praying that I can soak up this year, and use it to bring glory to His name. Pray that wherever he places me I will be able to let my light shine.
He is training me, He is lifting me up, and He is restoring me.
[I can feel it in my bones.]
And it’s a beautiful thing.
