My team mate Jessica felt the need to pray for Clementine. Clementine is the mother of Shani who is one of our ministry contacts here. Clementine has invited us into her home for movies and prayer and ice cream! She is a loving woman that is filled with God but suffers from Fibraminalgia (sp?)
Jessica felt like someone was supposed to pray with her-So Trevor and Jessica thought I should pray for her too.
I often think “Uh, sure…I’ll go, but my prayers don’t really do anything..” but today I decided that anything that happens isn’t me but is GOD. So if God decides to do something, awesome…if not…then that’s His Choice.
I knelt down and put my hands on her legs as Jessica stood next to her and prayed. Jessica prayed such strong words…I love when she prays because I feel like it is a direct line to God. I closed my eyes tight and said “God, im ready…Use me!”
I then began to pray…I just prayed for healing for her and that God would just come and that she could walk in His image and that her legs would no longer be of hers but of Jesus. I prayed that her legs would become stronger than the legs she had, even stronger than the legs she had in her youth. Then as I was praying I had the image in my head to kiss her feet.
I didn’t do it because it felt ridiculous …and I think feet are gross… and I didnt want to do it. We hugged her good-bye and went back to our cabin.
Then Jessica and I talked in the kitchen. We had a long discussion about the stuff Leon said to us (Leon is Shani’s friend who spoke life into us). He pointed to each of us about different things…For example he said Jessica -Healing, Me- Miracles, Trevor- discernment…and on and on.
I have been praying to see Miracles and to have more of God and less of me. Then it dawned on me…God was trying to show me miracles, he was leading me there…But I was letting MYSELF get in the way.
So I asked Jessica to go back with me. This was hard to do because I felt so foolish and just nervous about praying in general. Clementine was in the middle of lunch and I explained that I felt there was something I was supposed to do. So we prayed for Clementine again and I knelt at her feet and Jessica prayed for one minute and The holy spirit just took over my lips and my face fell to the floor. I stopped praying for Clementine and just began weeping. I cried at her feet and just begged God to make it less of me and more of Him. Let Him do miracles and let the Glory be to GOD. Let all of me fade away in His presence. Let myself be crucified and let Jesus touch her legs. If we ask for healing he will deliver so in the name of Jesus I ask for healing right now. Jesus use my hands right now, use my body to do your miracles Lord God. Then my lips kissed her Right foot and then her Left Foot. I then realized it was not my lips but the lips of Jesus. That I can no longer let myself get in the way. If God leads me I need to sacrififice myself. I am the lamb and He is the Shepherd. He will lead me to miracles, to His Kingdom, to everything I ask for. I need to be a lamb that follows and is willing to be sacrificed to glorify God. So God I continue to ask for less of me and more of YOU…..And let me be used to Glorify you and share your love.
Then leon said he saw her veins in her legs growing and Jessica felt it on her arms and that she was being filled with New Blood.
