“One’s destination is never a place, but rather a new way of looking at things.” Henry Miller
Anxiety :n.
1.a. A state of uneasiness and apprehension, as about future uncertainties.
I woke up yesterday morning, still having to pack a years worth of year into a backpack. Still $2,000 short to leave for launch, and my flight was booked to leave at 5pm.
I had an anxiety attack on the train from the city back to Huntington. Hysterically crying and shaking while on the phone with my mom. “I’m not ready…I am scared mom.”
I took a deep breathe and realized…I was not scared about going on The World Race, I was really excited. I wasn’t scared about the dangers or disease. I was so excited to help others and watch Gods hand at work. I was scared to be changed.
I came home and I was able to change my flight to 6am Sunday morning. I spent yesterday relaxing with my family and mentally preparing myself. We watched the movie “The Gospel of John” and I felt at ease.
I know in my heart that God chose me to do this journey. That the rock in my path right now, is just a stepping stone. So right now I currently am grieving leaving. I am packing my things and saying good-bye. I feel like I am suffering but then I remember the scripture John 16:21-22 A
woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but
when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a
child is born into the world. 22 So with you: Now is your time of
grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will
take away your joy.
woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but
when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a
child is born into the world. 22 So with you: Now is your time of
grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will
take away your joy.
So today I have no anxiety…
Today I am joyful that I will be the hands and feet of Jesus
Today I am grateful for my friends, family, and strangers that have supported me through prayer and financially…
Today I had to have $8,500 fundraised to leave for New Zealand and today I have $8,613
