It’s not working.
Whoever thought of this Fusion “Ask the Lord” idea was seriously wrong. This could never work.
I’m trying so hard. I’m searching and seeking opportunities for ministry, people to talk to, divine appointments, someone or someway to serve, Lord.
I’m exhausted. Spiritually. Emotionally.
I’m praying and crying out to you, “Lord just let me hear your voice, reveal your will and your plan for me in this place, in this day Jesus!”
….
And I hear nothing.
I feel as though I’m wasting my time.
“Why didn’t I sign up for a normal route with structure? At least then maybe I would’ve seen some progress.” I think to myself.
Then, suddenly, I hear a gentle whisper in my ear…
“Daughter, Beloved, your efforts have not been wasted, nor have they been in vain. Your search has had the wrong focus. While you’ve been searching for things to do, people to tell about Me, and ways to express My love to others – growing frustrated when your efforts seem fruitless or you are unable to hear My voice – I’ve been right beside you the whole time. I am with you always. Seek ME, then I will show you more and take you deeper. I am jealous for you, Jessi. I love and adore your heart for people and desire to serve me. You are a faithful and trusted servant. But, I want you to focus inward, on me. Your goal and priority is to know me, to love me. Only then will you be ready for the things which I have called you here for. Once you know me, that is when I will start to unveil my plans for you. Give up your flesh desires of having something to show for your efforts; a way to measure your progress; something to tell people back home. Be satisfied by simply doing things out of love for your Father. Seek me first.”
I answer Him, “Ok God.”
