Hello Friends!
As I write this I am laying in bed, filled with happiness from the day. This past week was a rough one for me, but with a lot of prayers I made it through. For the first time in my life I really felt I was being attacked by the enemy. But after yesterday and today I feel whole again! Thank you Jesus!
If I had to summerize this past week in one word I would say, bruised. I couldnt get through one day without feeling like I had gotten beat up. I could do nothing right and was continuoiulsy reminded of it. I was doubting almost everything about myself. Am I a good friend? Am I a good boss? Am I a good daughter? Am I a good mentor? Am I to honest? Am I to bossy? Am I to rude? Am I a good listener? The enemy had gotten into my head and I could not shake him for days!
Each night before I went to bed I prayed, “heavenly father, if these are things in my life I need to work on please help me to work on them, if this is the enemy trying to turn my eyes away from you please guard my heart and give me the power to fight it.” I was so down on myself I didnt want to talk to anyone, I didnt want to be around anyone for fear that I wasnt good enough.
The turning point was finally yesterday, it was a beautiful day outside after I got off work. (55 degrees for Washington basically means its shorts season) I got a text inviting me to a bonfire at one of my YoungLife girl’s house. These girls are 8th graders and the 8th grade boys were invited also, thank goodness the boys leader decided to come too. The night was spent roasting marchmellows, playing basketball, and my personal favorite, girl talk. These beautiful girls have such a heart for Jesus it is amazing! They shared their hearts with me and to end the night they all told me how proud they were of me about my upcoming trip. Now in my opinion getting the approval of an 8th grade girl is big news and my heart was overjoyed by getting to spend time with them.
Then today I got to spend the day with my dad which almost never happens, we went to lunch with my grandma and aunt. When I first told them about my trip they were not supportive but today they both told me they were proud of me and could not wait to see what God does in my life.
Tomorrow morning I am going out to breakfast with my other group of YoungLife girls, they are 11th graders, having them share their lives with me and wanting me to hang out with them means so much to me.
My point is that God knows what is going on, he knew that I had a rough week and needed Him. He showered these last two days with so much joy, happiness, and grace it wipes away the memories of the bad days only to shine light on the good.
Thanks for reading!
Jesse
