Today family has been on my mind a lot. As of a few weeks ago I now have two families. I have one family; mom, dad, brother, aunts, uncles, grandparents, and cousins. I also have a second, new family, the group of gals and guys that I will be spending 11 months with.
I have never been the best at making new friends but these people, they are my brothers and sisters that have already accepted me and love me as I am. How cool is that?
Now here is my dilema, how can I be happy and sad at the same time? I am so sad to leave behind so many people I love and care about but I am so jazzed to head off on the race with this new family, getting to know them and spreading the word of God together. How do I choose?
I sat in silence, (the roomates gone to work) putting it into Gods hands. I asked him, “God, I love each of these families, how am I suppose to be happy and sad at the same time? How am I going to be away for so long? What if these new friends decide they dont like me? What if?…How?…Why?”
In this moment of being completely vulnerable to my heavenly father I just felt this sense of calm and peace as he was taking this burden from me. I realized this is not my worry but his, this is his plan for my life and he has this undercontrol.
It is not my place to worry, it is actually a sin. I need to trust fully in my God and know that his has it all planned out I just need to be patient and watch it unfold.
