Training camp was amazing. Thats all there is to it. It was amazing. I was told to come to training camp and leave my expectations at home-which I did-but I was still blown out of the water. I can't believe the week I just had. I spent a week with some of the greatest people I've ever met. I don't say that lightly. I mean it. The people I met have a heart and hunger for God and I pray my heart would mirror theirs. My desire for God is but a fraction of what I've seen in the hearts of the AIM staff this past week.
AIM said it best: we are crazy. I am a crazy person. How can I go to 11 countries? How can I have a positive effect in such a negative world? When death chokes countries; when hate is the one emotion everyone knows they are capable of; when sorrow plagues the core like cancer, how can I put a smile on an aged-face?
I have one consolation. Simply put, it is follow God and He will guide me. In my actions, my speech, my thought, my ministry.
Psalm 91:1 KJV says, "He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty."
This verse speaks volumes to me. In my darkest hour I would read and reread this verse and know that as long as i didnt turn my back on God, He would protect me. As long as i didnt reject Him, I would be His. There have been times when I have forgotten this verse. There have been times when I ignored this verse and created my own, "give Jesse what Jesse wants." No longer.
I know that there is a woman in Romania who is in her darkest hour right now. I know that in China, a child hunts for a joy that can't be found. I know in South Africa, a man is waiting to become a true man. I pray to my God that He would give me the true heart of a servant. I pray to my God that He would send me to these places to find that woman. To find that child. To find that man.
In closing, I feel like God has truly pointed me in the direction I need to go. I feel like God has opened the doors to ministry. I never thought that this is something I would do and i definitely didnt think this is something I would want to do. How He amazes me every day!
