My plane didn’t leave till Saturday. My friend picked me up at the bus station and i served at the ministry where she works for the week. Its funny how when your going through pain and loss how much serving others ministers to yourself.
I got sent home on tuesday. Wednesday my mom called me with news i couldn’t comprehend. One of my best friends (who was living on my couch) ended up being a child predator and i had no idea. I had no idea when i left for training camp the marshals would be at my house 4 days later looking for him. I was in tears, i couldn’t even think straight. I wasn’t sure how to even feel about it. How could somebody i have known since 7th grade do that?
I say all that to say this. Though i got majorly stabbed in the back God saw me through it. His protection was over and still is over my family. I’m not gonna lie and say i’m totally over it cause i’m not. Forgiveness is a lifestyle and a choice. everyday we have to look at those who wrong us and say to ourselves we choose to forgive. I wish there was some pop song i could quote or joke i could say to ease the harshness of this blog but there’s not.
No matter who wrongs you, who stabs you in the back, Gods love and sovereignty is still here and will prevail. If you choose to let him walk you through it you will make it. I’ll say it again forgiveness is a choice. bitterness is also a choice, but it kills. Give your pain to Jesus, and he will see you through it.
