So…like I said in my blog this last month started out kinda difficult, BUT
it's gotten better! In fact, I feel like I'm at a completely different
place than I've ever been before – it's weird…different…but seems
to be more stable!! This last Tues night I woke up around 3 in the
morning (Wed morning) with an immediate scared feeling. It was weird.
I wasn't scared of the dark…or the noises…or anything like that, I
was scared I was going to see a demon. SO random but… I didn't want
to look out the window (at the tree) that was by my head because I knew I would
probably see one…and then I didn't want to look up in the corner
above my bed because of the same thing. I immediately started praying
for peace. The place we're staying is surrounded by witchcraft and
this last week and a half we've all been attacked in some way
(spiritually & physically). Anyway, I was laying in bed praying and
couldn't even get myself to turn to lay on my side because I so
strongly felt like a demon was going to jump on me (seems so
irrational but SO real at the same time)… As I was praying I felt like I needed to
read in Psalms…I didn't really know where but then 143 popped into my
head. I questioned it thinking maybe "I" meant 139 because I had no
idea what 143 was about… I turned there and read "…deliver me from
my enemies oh Lord! I have fled to you for refuge"…and then read 140
& 141 too. All three seemed perfect for that time…I read over them a
couple times each and still didn't feel like the attack was over so I
started listening to Jason Upton's Freedom Reigns…I listened to that
a few times and started declaring it out loud, and then the peace came (by this time it was 4:15ish) and
I was able to go back to sleep. The next morning I woke up, not
frustrated with the lack of sleep or scared but at peace and so thankful that God was with me as I experienced it in
a way I had never before… I was also completely worn out – it felt like I had literally walked through a (physical) battle. It was crazy but awesome. The next night
one of my leaders and a couple of girls anointed the beds in my room
with oil and prayed over them and then we walked over to the wall
surrounding the complex and prayed. We decided that we would wake up
at 3 to walk around and pray as that seemed to be the time most people
were being affected. …so we did. We ended up walking around for
about an hour and 15 min and then went back to bed. That was also a
stretch for me but…it was great!
It's been SO crazy but so amazing at the same time! I've never dealt with anything like this so personally…I have with/through others but never through myself… It's crazy how real the spirit world really is.
It's been an amazing month with so many different experiences and I am SO incredibly blessed to have been able to walk through each one. I'm excited to see what the next 10 months hold…it's crazy to think this was only the first month! Yikes!
Thank you for your prayers and encouraging words! This has been a time full of the unexpected and unknown and I know I wouldn't be able to walk through it like I have been without your prayer and support! Y'all are awesome!!!
