You know that moment when you’re on a rollercoaster and your peaking right before the first big drop and you think to yourself…”ummm…I change my mind, I’d like off the ride now” and the word “ABORT!” comes to mind? Anyone?? No?…just me? Well in the past week, all of that has gone through my mind…more than once! I think to myself, what am I doing?! How on earth did I ever think I was going to be able to do this?!…and then they ask me to lead?! LORD!!!…WHAT?! Fear floods my thoughts as I think about leading 5 other people across the world, and then there comes that word again, “ABORT!…ABORT!” Doubts, fears and crazy emotions all seem to be peaking…that first big drop, it’s about to come… And then, as I can feel the rollercoaster of it all teetering, I’m reminded of the truth so beautifully written in this song:
He whispers in my ear, tells me that I’m fearless
He shares a melody, tells me to repeat it
And it makes me whole, it reminds my soul
I am all He says I am
And He says I am His own
I was blinded by, scales upon my eyes
And He came like a light and burned up all the lies
Oh He set me free, He reminded me
I am all He says I am,
And He says I am His own
Chains are broken, the scales are on the floor
Truth is spoken, I’m no orphan anymore
I am loved, I am new again
I am free, I’m no slave to sin
And I’m a saint, I am righteousness
Oh and I’m alive, I’m alive, I’m alive
(I Am All He Says I Am by Cody Carnes)
…and all is calm again…
January 9th…6AM…Washington DC, all mark day one of our first “travel day”…and with that said, I shall say this…
Mozambique here I come!
