This past year, as I have been studying Philippians with my high school girls, God has stirred a desire in me to be completely surrendered to His will. It’s sometimes really easy in ministry to think you are living a surrendered life, but God has started to show me places where I have grown comfortable living my own way. Paul had such a passion for Christ to be preached above all else and his words echo in my heart, “To live is Christ and to die is gain.” I want to know with greater understanding how to allow Christ to reign in me, to have full control of my life. My prayer over and over has been that God would direct my steps, that I would learn what it means to live a life worthy of Christ.
I’ll admit that many days fear threatens to take over as I ponder that “what if’s” of the next year. There is the fear of leaving people I love, fear of not knowing the next step, and fear of leaving the safe and the comfortable behind. But God is so good to cover over that fear with His perfect love.
I fully expect for this next year to be the death of “me.” Hopefully, it will be a place of dying to myself, dying to the desires of my flesh, and a time of learning to walk by the Spirit. I desperately need your prayers. Please intercede for me as I seek not only to minister to the poor and broken, but pray that I will be broken and will learn more of God’s goodness and sufficiency in those hard places.
