I remember the first time I saw her… I would be lying if I didn’t say she frightened me slightly. She was loud, kinda silly, in a way that made me uncomfortable.
Every time I saw her, I had the same feeling, to the point I started avoiding her. I would walk out of the way to avoid her, if I saw her in the distance.
I had heard a few team members say they were told, that was just who she was… don’t take everything she says as the truth.
I succeeded at staying out of her way till the last week we were there.
The team did a skit during which I played a drunk. As I staggered and swayed across the floor I could here a familiar voice making cat calls and laughing… almost to the point I started laughing…
Then a few hours later that day one of my team mates finds me and tells me… She is looking for me. “Me!!, Why could she possibly be looking for me…. great!”
Yep, my reaction exactly, I shut my bedroom door and hoped and maybe even prayed she would not come knocking.
That night at the evening church service it was dubbed as “missions night”, the team all got up and shared about the past two months of the race ( all but me, as I had no voice by this point due to an evil sore throat that was taking over)
as the evening was winding down there was snacks and stuff, as I went to the water cooler to refill my cup I turn and there she is, I am cornered between her and the water cooler… nowhere to escape.
My eyes must have screamed fear cause she says to me… “I won’t hurt you” my heart broke at that moment… did my face really just make her feel like she needed to say that to me.
It was what she continued to say that had my jaw on the floor and heart ripped open.
She says” I just wanted to tell you something… I see something really special in you. God has an amazing plan for you and and is going to use you in a mighty way in the life of prostitutes and drunks… people like me”
Here I sit judging, just cause she is a little different and all she sees in me is God’s plan
Sometimes God uses our fears to prove a point.
We are called to love everyone, not just those who look or act just like us. Those who say things that are nice or normal. We are called to love the unloved, to give to those who have nothing.
God purposely put this woman in my life for the benefit of both of us. She had wisdom to impart on me and I a hug to give her… unfortunately it took being cornered literally for me to realize it.
