I am back again for the second time in the span of a week! For those who know me that is an accomplishment. Things have been crazy since arriving in the Philippines. I have met so many people and seen so many things I am still processing it. There are many things I could blog about that I have seen or how I feel God is changing me, but this blog is about one specific encounter. In my last blog I spoke of feedings, which is an outreach program by KIM to provide food to impoverished children. On my last feeding I was presented with a unique opportunity to give a little girl more than food. Apart from giving the children food KIM also provides them with soap, and let me tell you those children love their soap. I had more kids swarming me than the guys providing them/ with food which you would think took priority. The backpack I used was a Frozen pack and I was told to give it to one special girl. You would think that was an easy task but I assure you it is not. How do you chose the right girl out of 100! So many of them asked me for the backpack it almost broke my heart to say no! The hope and desire in their eyes was evident.
Before my emotions overwhelmed me and panic set in I sent up a quick prayer, and that led me to Kathleen. All of a sudden I knew where to go. When I saw her a calm settled over me and I made the decision that this was the girl. Unfortunately, I still had a significant following of soap frenzied children. After many hectic minutes of being harassed by children and the occasional parent, myself and Russell made the decision to just dump all the soap out of the bag. The little beasts descended upon the soap like locusts upon the earth. During the chaotic jumble I set about to look for Kathleen. Thank the Lord she was to my left staring up to me with a bright smile because looking for her in the mess around would have quite frankly sucked. As I strapped the pack to her back she had a look of stunned disbelief quickly followed by one of the widest smiles I have ever seen. This is something she will never forge and neither will I. My hope and prayers are that she realizes one day I was just the gift giver not the provider. I truly believe that God used this event to say something to me. I have always struggled with the belief that God answers the small prayers and a feeling that my relationship with Jesus is a front I use as a shield. Through this small answered prayer God showed me he is always there and always listening. Jesus is my savior and my relationship with Him is continually growing. As I walk the road to self-discovery I know fully understand I am never alone.
