The last few days have been incredibly difficult for me physically, mentally, and spiritually. First, we had a change of plans and needed to help clear part of the construction area for a soccer field. This means all the boulders we helped dig out and piled together had to be moved. While doing this, accidents happen, and one of my fingers got crushed. Thank God my finger is still intact, but the pain was excruciating. So I will be recovering and taking things slowly for the next couple days. Second I’ve been really distracted with figuring out what God might be calling me to do when I get back, and focused on the end of this trip. My heart was not in the right place, I did not serve out of love, passion, and adoration, and I could not focus on appreciating the moment God has given me to be here.
However, God has been with me through all this: I listened to a short sermon from Island ECC by Kwen Ip, who emphasized that our journey is the destination, and we need to live the moment pursuing and being with Christ. Also called home and was reminded that all the struggles I am facing is the reality for every missionary, short or long term. God has chosen this time of my life to test my faith and patience, willingness to trust, follow, and pursue Him, and wants me to endure so He can continue revealing more of His glory to me, and even show me step by step what my direction in life is. I will be missing out on a whole ton if I give up and went home now.
Just wanted to share a bit of what I’ve been dealing with. Please pray for healing for my hand and that I can truly embrace the life God has given me in Nicaragua, seeking Jesus in everything I do.
