Staying at Cicrin has been such a huge blessing. I’ve learned so much already in just 3 weeks, about myself but more importantly about God’s unfailing love and constant work in my life and the lives of the children here. During this past week, I questioned God’s purpose and calling for me, and was filled with anxieties for my path when I returned home. Despite all my doubts and worries, God sent many people to remind me of His goodness and sovereignty over my life. I have had a lot of time for self-reflection, and the biggest thing God has revealed to me is enjoying the moment. When I was at home or even traveling to Hong Kong this past summer, I took many things for granted and did not appreciate the blessings God had placed before me. In relation, rather than constantly thinking about returning home, God wants me to embrace this experience and just live this part of my life with no regrets. I’m still praying and asking God to reveal, one step at a time, what He is calling me to do when I get back, but I have assurance that God will use me to serve and further His kingdom no matter what path/career I choose, I just need to be bold, have faith, and remember that my strength comes from the Lord.
Today is our last day at Cicrin. We will be leaving early tomorrow morning for our next ministry site, which also means our squad will finally be splitting and going our separate ways (we will all be together again for our travel to Guatemala, our midway debrief, and final debrief). I will miss Cicrin a lot: the place itself, but also all the memorable relationships I’ve made with a few of the boys. I’ll never forget the long conversations I had with them (mainly because I am struggling to understand what they’re saying), the days and nights we spent playing soccer, sleeping outdoors last night under the starry sky and sharing many laughs together. I have shared contact information with our translator Josué and the boys’ caretaker Antonio, whom I’ve really grown close with, so hopefully we can stay in touch and update each other on our lives and the kids at Cicrin. Looking forward to all the things God has in store for me at our next destination!
