So over the last few days, I have been able to have a glimpse at the man that God is calling me to be. It is absolutely mind-blowing and somewhat terrifying at the same time.
You may wonder why I would use terrifying as one of the main adjectives to describe my future… well let me tell you…
For about 2-3 weeks I was always tired. No matter how much sleep I got, how healthy I ate, or how many physical activities I did, I could not retain energy. This was really starting to creep me out, and I was getting sick of having to take naps and mentally check out of ministry in order to regain a little bit of energy. Well, about 4 days God revealed why I had been tired so much lately. Obviously this fatigue was not physical. It was a representation of something that was happening in the spiritual realm. When I figured that out, I dug deep into His word and presence in order to figure out how to get rid of this spiritual oppression that was on me. Then it pretty much smacked me in the face what “my” problem was. I was being burdened by someone else’s burden. To remedy this problem, God showed me that I needed to fast and intercede for this person for a day. In that way, I would shoulder their burden for a day. So on Friday, I decided to live out the command in Galatians 6:2, “Bear one another’s burdens, and thereby fulfill the law of Christ.”
At about 10:00 in the morning, I realized that God was releasing me from “my” burden. I was so energetic and just spent all morning basking in His presence. By the end of the day, so many great visions and words of affirmation had come to me. It was an amazing day, and I haven’t been tired since then. I feel more energetic now than I have in months. Praise God for the lifting of burdens!!
The reason this scares me is that I haven’t talked to this person in about a month, and I have no idea what is going on, but I just knew I needed to pray and intercede on their behalf. If I was that emotionally and actually physically burdened for this person, I don’t know what it will be like when God decides to command me to carry the burden that one of my brothers or sisters on this race is carrying.
Right now God is calling me to go so deep into the gift of intercession that I can’t fathom where I will end up by the end of this race. I feel like I have climbed multiple mountains in just the month and a half that I have been on this race, so 9 more months will be absolutely crazy! So like I said, it’s mind-blowing and terrifying at the same time!
