Well it has been a while since I’ve posted anything. I am currently working on 3 blog posts. I will try to spread them out a little bit just so I don’t overwhelm anybody with new posts. With that said, here is the first “masterpiece”..haha.
This is a thought I was having for a couple weeks, then one Wednesday night the message the pastor brought echoed the same things I was thinking and reinforced all of my thoughts. The message came from I John 5:21, “Little children, guard yourselves from idols.”
I’m sure a lot of us have heard that verse before and we let our minds wander to what some of our idols may be. The knee jerk reaction for most is to stray towards the idols of the Old Testament (the golden calf, idols of baal, etc.), but a lot of us probably understand that there are many more idols than just the physical idols of old. Some of these idols may include the following: relationships, possessions, jobs, etc. One idol that I have been struggling with a lot that I hardly ever gave any credence to was the god of narcissism. Narcissism is the love of self.
To guard myself from this idol, I need to look at the motive behind almost all of my actions. This is especially true when I do anything related to the World Race. I can update my blog and talk about awesome things I will be doing, but what are my motives behind that. Yeah, I would love for some of my blogs to encourage people or drive them to think about supporting me, but ultimately my motive should be to bring glory to God. If that is not my motive, then the words I am typing in this blog are useless.
I realized how badly I struggled with this idol a couple weeks ago in a social group. The group was discussing economics, which is my major in college. I felt that since I was knowledgeable in this topic that I had the right to inject my thoughts into the conversation, but every time I tried to say something I kept getting interrupted. It just made me mad that I couldn’t show off my knowledge. The only reason I wanted to talk was to glorify myself by flashing my knowledge not to help others learn more about the topic. I know it is a somewhat silly example, but I surprised myself at how angry I got at others.
That’s where the title of the blog comes from. My god is myself, and, unfortunately, I love worshiping my god way too often. There is a fine line that you have to walk between narcissism, humility, and self-deprecation. I will talk more about the last (self-deprecation) in my next blog. Hope you guys are having an amazing day!!
