To say that this month in Bulgaria was hard would be an understatement…By far this has been my hardest month. I was challenged in ways I never saw coming. I was tested in how I saw myself, even how I saw myself as a woman of God. This month for me was clinging to my Papa harder than ever.
As hard as this month was and how much I was tested, I did have some really amazing days! My team and I really bonded together. This month brought us closer than ever! Hard days are inevitable. They are part of life. I just hadn’t had one in the last couple weeks and not one that bad.
Sometimes when hard days come on the race it’s like everything hits you in one fell swoop and that is what happened to me yesterday. It hit me like a freight train. I couldn’t even begin to process what or why I was emotional.
It was our last full day of ministry and I couldn’t even handle all my emotions. We were setting up for a womens day event, I walked out of the bathroom and everything hit me in that instant. My teammate Jaclyn was standing in the kitchen and just came and hugged me while praying.
There are so many changes coming my way in the next couple days and beyond! Team changes. New Continent. Finishing the Race. Going Home. Decisions about after the Race.
As I am writing this I am in such a better place. I have started processing all of my emoitions and leaning into Papa. As I step into this next season and finsh the race I am looking forward to all the good days to come, I know hard days will come but I have Papa, and my team.
If you are having a bad day remember Papa never gives us more than we can handle. He gives us what we need, he loves us and is always walking hand in hand right beside us! <3
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