This morning as I was spending time with the Lord he reminded me of the sweet words he spoke over this calendar year and he revealed a new layer to the meaning of these words. Right now I am in a season where I am learning what it looks like to lead from a place of trusting who the Lord created me to be and from trusting the Lord with everything. If you have been following my blogs for a while now you know that the words the Lord spoke over this calendar year were
Reckless and Wild Abandon and Bloom.
If you would like to go back and read about what the Lord originally told me follow this link:
https://jennyfeicht.theworldrace.org/post/rain-blooming-and-wild-abandon
If you are looking for a mid year check in on these words click on this link:
https://jennyfeicht.theworldrace.org/post/reckless-and-wild-clarity
Ok now that we are all caught up on what the Lord has shown me and has been teaching me, now I can speak more into where I am currently. This morning the lord gave me a vision of him extending his hand out to me and asking me to dance with him. I was nervous to accept the invitation because I knew that I didn’t know how to Waltz and that was the dance the Lord wanted to dance with me. In the vision I told the Lord that I was nervous and he said Jenny do you trust me to teach you? (He always leads me back to trust, interesting right) So I took his hand and accepted His invitation. Immediately upon accepting his hand he picked me up and placed me on his feet and we started to waltz. This image is sweet because it shows how the Lord was taking care of me like a Dad takes care of his daughter. After the first waltz was over he said ok sweet daughter now that you have experienced this with me now it is time to get off my feet and learn to dance with me instead of me dancing for you. So I hesitantly stepped off his feet and said but what if I step on your toes or mess up? He just smiled at me and we started to waltz. I didn’t get all the steps right, I even stepped on his toes and in moments I tried to take the lead, but the Lord was gentle and kind to speak to me in those moments. He would remind me every time that I am still learning and would reassure me that the dance is not over just because I made a mistake. Messing up is part of the process of learning something new and He has so much grace for me in the process. He also told me that there will always be new steps to learn and that I would one day grow confident enough to step out and try those new steps, but for now he is slowly building my confidence in the basics.
So how does this connect to Reckless and Wild Abandon and Bloom? I believe that the Lord is showing me that to Recklessly and Wildly Abandon I not only have to lay things down and surrender them, but I also have to set aside my pride and reputation to step out and try new things. To be ok with not being great or even good at something before trying it. Like in learning to Waltz, I need to be ok with the unknown of how I will do and trust that the Lord will give me grace for the process as well as the people around me. That in order to continue blooming I have to actually create and form new buds to be able to bloom in new areas. New growth and new blooms have to start somewhere. They don’t just pop out of unwatered places, it takes work to create new buds, and it takes time and energy to take those from buds into full blooms.
So this is me, I’m in the process of creating new buds within my life. I am learning how to have grace for myself in this process of stepping further into leadership and figuring out how to come alongside each person individually while also caring for the squad as a whole. I am learning what it looks like to not mother people and instead come alongside them and continually point them back to the one who can actually give them what they need, The Lord. I am learning that bumps in the road and mistakes are actually the best learning and growing experiences. I am learning to accept God’s invitation to dance with him everyday.
BELOVED LETS DANCE!
