Yesterday the word redeemed kept coming to mind. God has redeemed me, and he’s using me in the process of redemption of other people. He is the redeemer. But this word has come to life today in a perfect way. The last few days have been difficult, especially yesterday which was our last day of ministry and what I thought was a rough ending to the month. This morning started out looking like it was going to be the same, but tonight has been a night of redemption.
It’s the last night we’re staying at SHE, and it couldn’t be better. It’s been special. A 2 hour period of sitting outside on the balcony in Thailand, sipping coffee, worshiping, with the moon shining so beautifully and stars peeking through holes in the clouds is what I consider a perfect night. I sit in freedom, feeling the love of God that penetrates the deepest parts of my heart. It feels better than anything. I sit here in thankfulness. Praise is on my lips. God has not only brought me to Thailand to be a part of his work, but He meets me so intimately on a Saturday night under the stars to revive my spirit and to remind me of his everlasting love in the middle of it all. His love is so tangible tonight. It’s so real and genuine and freeing. I don’t have to be anybody I’m not. I don’t have to pretend or fake how I’m feeling and be ok when I’m not. I don’t have to think about anything else that’s distracting or stressful. I don’t have to feel the weight of burdens I try carrying. All I have to do is sit in his presence, in his comforting arms and peace, and I’m left astounded by his creation and ridiculous love that never fails. I sit amazed that he has chosen me. He has rescued me from the pit of hell. He rescues me every single day. And he has given me an incredible opportunity to love his children the way he has loved me. If it weren’t for Him I wouldn’t even be in this country. His love has changed my heart. It has changed my life. I can’t go back to the way I used to live. I can’t live in complacency. I can no longer live without a burning passion that continues to grow to follow him and share his love with everyone I meet. I can’t leave his love and the life he has for me because he has captivated my heart. There’s no way I can live without giving my whole life to him. I am reminded of his truth and his goodness and the simplicity of having a relationship with him.
The Lord redeemed the end of the month for me by encountering me this way, and all I can do is praise Him.
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