Oh, gosh! I can’t believe that I’m actually writing this
right now!
I can still remember sitting down to watch the World Race
Intro video and making the decision to step out in faith and apply. I wasn’t
sure what I was getting myself into, but I knew it could be the opportunity of
a lifetime. So, now that the Race is winding down and this season is coming to
a close, what, you ask, is on my mind?
1. Abandonment
This whole year has been about abandoning yourself to the
things of God…His will, His plan, His voice. I can’t imagine going back to my
old life and not living in abandonment! I can’t imagine living life how I used
to now that I know His voice so clearly…now that I know discomfort to the point
of being comfortable in it (YES, that was one of my goals!!!) I don’t want it
to stop! Ever!
2. Momentum
As close as it’s getting to returning to the states, it’s
difficult to stay in ministry mode and not switch to home-planning mode. That’s
where momentum comes in extremely handy. It’s our team name and, so far, has
helped me almost weekly in staying focused on the Race while I’m still here.
The closer we get to the end, the more I have to repeat this word to
myself…it’s getting to be almost daily. But, God still has me here in this season.
It’s not over and we still have so much more of the world to share Jesus with!
Just keep moving, just keep pushing, just keep going!
3. Future
What does that even mean?! I have no idea. I don’t know
what’s to come or even where I’m going to end up. But I do know the answer that
is above all those things. My God. He’s my future…and whatever that
entails…I’ll take it. I’m excited about what’s to come…although, constantly
trying to revert back to #2.
4. Uncertainty
This is where the “oh, crap, what in the heck is going to
happen, who have I become, who are you US people, what is this US culture,
crap, crap, crap!” reaction comes in handy. Am I really allowed to take a
shower AND run a dishwasher AND wash my clothes AND water the lawn all at
ONCE?? Can I really sit on this toilet? Is there really an entire aisle of
frozen pizza to choose from?? What in the world do I choose to eat when I have
a menu full of normal American appetizers, salads, soups, entrees, drinks AND
desserts??? How am I supposed to function without 4 other people to live life
with 24/7????? You don’t know what feedback is…oh, gosh…
5. Change
Yeah, all of the above, plus more. I’ve always claimed that
change is what pushes you to grow more. So, I guess this will be my chance to
another season of growth. Well, bring it on. Because, here on the race, no day
is the same…there are changes every minute…and when you’re working for the
Almighty God as your boss, He likes to change things up pretty often. So, I’m
pretty used to this one.
So, here’s to the last month of this 11 month journey! I’m
excited to end this out in complete 1.Abandonment with 2.Momentum towards
5.Changing my 4.Uncertain 3.Future!
