Getting on the plane at LAX was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. For me the act of leaving the USA was impossible to fathom. Up until that point I could back out at any time but once I left, it would be harder to come back. Believe me when I say I wanted to go on this trip, I’ve been called to do this and been planning it for months if not years…… but the more time I have to think, the more I over think everything. 11 months sounds like a lifetime when you get down to all the nitty gritty details of actually leaving.
To me the fear of the unknown and trying to plan for every situation was very overwhelming and the easiest answer to me was going home and continuing my life as it was. I am so glad that I got on the plane and am currently sitting in the Philippines. I know this year will be hard and some days I will want to go home and hug my dog (and I guess my parents too), but the trip feels right and I am at peace about going.
Philippians 4:6-7
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
