On this day, my son Christoper, moved in with me. YES! He moved in with me. A couple of weeks ago, he said to me, “Mom, I want to tell you something, but I don’t want you to get your hopes up.” That’s enough to make any parent nervous. He said, “I am thinking about moving in with you.” My spirit leaped inside of me! I know how Elizabeth felt while pregnant with John the Baptist, when Mary showed up pregnant with Jesus!
Avoiding the “hopes up” syndrome, I told him whatever he wanted to do, I would support that decision.
Now two weeks later, he has officially moved in. His room is in order (well at least his stuff is in there… thrown).
It has been a long journey, and an even tougher one than any I have been through. I would never want to live it again. I have abandoned my son in the past, and there was fear, I’m sure, that I may do it again. However, over time, I have proven to my son that I am here for him. At first, all I wanted to do was “run” home, but God would not let me! OH HOW I AM GRATEFUL!
My son and I are closer than ever. We have an open door policy with our thoughts and our lives. As a result, he trusts me, and to God be the glory. It wasn’t so long ago that I was not a trustworthy person.
TONIGHT, as we were moving in his stuff, I asked him what does he want on his walls (his room is black and white). He quickly said, “posters of Lindsay Lonahan and a couple more young hotties.” I assured him that that was not going up… He laughed so loud and hard. It cracked me up too. It was great to know that he feels that comfortable with me to joke like that. My son is quite the boy. HA! I guess they really never grow out of that.
We both know that this is going to stretch us to who knows what. My place is MUCH smaller than what he is used to, and I have lived completely alone for over six years!!! OH BOY! Also, financially it is going to be quite different too. God is my provider though!!!
Time is a healer! So is LOVE! I know that I know that Christopher knows that he knows, I LOVE HIM!!! Just like God, I will never leave him nor forsake him.
For all of those who have walked this journey with me, THANK YOU for praying with me, putting up with me, and more than anything, not letting me give up! I love you!!!
I would ask for continued love, prayers, and accountability. This journey is not over; it has really just begun!
Children are a gift from God! Thank you God for the gift of your Son and mine!
