This season that began with the race started off hard for me. I got crushed! I learned that I am struggling with a Martha spirit.
I really love to hands on serve! I love to lead; I love to cook; I love to clean; I love to organize… The Lord has wired me this way. The problem was that I was in a leader position that required me to focus on logistics. Releasing this was necessary to focus on hands-on ministry, but was still a blow to my pride.
As a result, I found myself trying to take over other’s duties to replace the “void” in my life. I have found a lot of my value in serving. Though this is truly still my heart, I know that Father is calling me to rest in Him and receive a Mary spirit. “I release you my child,” said God. I repented of my thoughts, jealousies, insecurities, and of not putting my
full identity in Christ. I feel so much peace for the first time in a long time.
Coming into the World Race, God spoke to me that this would not be just a mission trip,
but an opportunity to really dig in to Him, not just abstract theology, but the Spirit of Truth and application.
Serving is in my blood, however, it is not my calling. I have a call on my life to preach, teach and make disciples. COOL! This is not new information, but is a freeing revelation. Get that? I am currently the intercessor prayer person for the entire trip, and am moving forward in an effort to disciple every young woman on this trip. I will still be fully engaged in ministry and the race too. I will keep you up to date as I grow in wisdom and in Christ.
Specific prayer request: Die to self, added measures of time to spend in the Lord, harvest of disciples, fruits of the Spirit, a shepherd’s heart, humility, burning passion for Jesus!!!
