Have you ever just cried for no apparent reason? Seven months (exactly) into this transition, it amazes me at how I am still just so unsettled in my emotions and my spirit.
I miss my home! I miss my friends! I miss my church! Sometimes I think that I never should have gone on the mission trip, and then things would be different. But, who am I to test fate? I don’t know that for sure; in fact, the only thing I know for sure is that a God who loves me is very real, though I don’t always feel His presence. I know that He will never leave me nor forsake me. I love Him so much!
This weekend, I called a couple of my friends just to chat and pray… and cry. In response to this, my friend Erin sent me such a great email on faithfulness.
Here it is: Faithful
His mother said to the servants, “Whatever He says to you, do it.” —John 2:5
When David was called by God to be king, he was out watching sheep, just being faithful. The day David killed Goliath, he didn’t wake up that morning and hear God say, “David, today you are going to the valley of Elah. There will be a giant Philistine named Goliath, and you will kill him with a stone.” No, David was taking food to his brothers, just being faithful on an errand for his dad. It was a little thing, but he was faithful.
What was Gideon doing when God called him? He was hiding from his enemies. He was terrified. But God saw his potential, and the next thing Gideon knew, he was leading his troops into battle.
And what was Elisha doing when Elijah called him to carry on the work? He was out plowing in the field.
Even Moses was watching sheep when God called him to deliver the Israelites.
Then there was Daniel, who was so faithful to the Lord that his enemies could not find one thing wrong with him. They had to make up lies about him so that he would be sentenced to death.
My point is this: They were faithfully doing what God had set before them. They weren’t running around, looking for big things to do. They were simply doing the little things.
Sometimes, we have great ideas of what God will do. But we have to wait on Him. What are your dreams right now? Maybe you want to do something for God, but you think it will never happen. Maybe it will. Maybe it even will surpass your wildest dreams. Just be faithful to do what God has set before you right now.
This has definitely opened my heart for Father to pour out His love into mine. You don’t always need books of the Bible. Sometimes you just need a word!
I miss all of you. I pray that one day I can come home. Until then, I will remain faithful with what I have before me.
