April in Thailand was a difficult month for me. Past wounds that did not heal properly were brought to the surface and I began to really see their affects on my life. As GOD led us to M@laysia, I also felt HIM leading me through true healing of these wounds as well.
So I prayed…
GOD, here I am. I need you. During these times I felt so alone. And I know that is not truth. I know you were there. I know you are here. I’m tired of looking back. I’m tired of being affected by these incidents when I know there is freedom and grace in you. There is freedom! So GOD I’ll walk this out with you. I give you all of this so that my eyes are no longer reflecting on my past, but forward to where I am and where you are taking me. Thank you for your patience. Thank you for your continual pursuit of me, of my heart.
And GOD responded…
Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms. ~1 Peter 4:10
In order for others to serve using their gifts, there must be humility in being served. You see, this past month I discovered the importance of being served by my teammates. There I was, having to be vulnerable about where I was personally while working through the healing process. And my sisters surrounded me.
And GOD called us to action…
I sat on my bed wrapped in a blanket crying, just letting out all that I had kept inside. I cried. I hurt. I went through the emotions that were still tied to the wounds until I found freedom in letting them go. Next to me was Darci who was journaling on her bed. I went to my sister. She wrapped her arms around me and I was able to just cry in the comforting arms of my sister. One of Darci’s many gifts is her compassionate heart that loves and comforts and brings peace to a restless heart. It is a beautiful gift. GOD expressed HIS love for me through it. Throughout the month, my sisters held me. They comforted me. They prayed for me. God revealed HIS presence in all those moments. And HE brought healing, complete healing.
