I was caught up in a prayer I heard Tuesday morning. The words spoken seemed to be in search of danger to proclaim the power of God. And this struck me personally. Because as I heard the prayer, I couldn’t help but wonder about my own actions, my own thoughts, my own heart. Where does my faith lie? Does it lie in those momentous occasions where God transforms a heart right in front of me, brings about healing right before my eyes, or do I have the faith that I am always in the midst of God’s revelations? Do I really need to see with my eyes, or am I more than satisfied with what HE reveals to my heart? Do I praise HIM because of what HE can do through me, or simply because of who HE is? When did HIS glory become about me?
Monday night we were warned about thieves who have been watching us. I wondered how people could be so controlled by power, greed, pride, etc. to the point of hurting someone. I prayed. I read. And I was truly convicted as I read Psalm 10.
Verses 2-4 consumed my thoughts – In his arrogance the wicked man hunts down the weak, who are caught in the schemes he devises. He boasts of the cravings of his heart; he blesses the greedy and reviles the Lord. In his pride the wicked does not seek him; In all his thoughts there is no room for God.
What are the true cravings of my own heart? How am I any different from the thieves? Yes, I don’t try to steal objects or possessions. But I do try to steal the glory from God. I do offend God. Do I truly seek God and HIS will, or am I consumed by my own pride, my own desires? What room is there in my own heart for God? How can God be seen through all I hide in my heart?
Forgive me for my bluntness, but this is the truth. This is the truth I must address. This is the truth I must proclaim. I am a thief. So I continue to search my heart to see what else is hidden, taking up the space God so desires to fill.
I praise God for His mercy and grace, and for HIS use of someone as broken as me.
