Some have wondered what GOD has been teaching me this month, personally. So let me be honest with you.
GOD has revealed more of my desire to be accepted by others. You see, I lived a life in search of acceptance from others for so many years. I so long to say that I truly only find my acceptance in Christ, but sadly enough, I can’t. Praise to GOD for HIS grace and patience, that each day HE reveals more of the freedom found in HIM. HE has brought healing, a lot of healing, especially this month, as well as a lot more boldness to share my weaknesses and to seek prayer as well. And so I share this with you.
Earlier this month I received news that really affects my life. When hearing about the potential opportunity to speak to a particular person for the first time, I became anxious and worried. The first thing I thought about was what will he think of me? This one thought revealed to me how I have yet to completely grasp that my acceptance is in GOD, and no one else. That I am to be, who I am, just as HE created me to be. And GOD spoke this loud and clear this month.
During a Thailand adventure taken with a group of girls yesterday, we hiked to a waterfall. The water rushed over the rocks, out of each crack, out of each hole, completely covering the rocks. It overflowed abundantly until the rocks could no longer be seen. The rocks weren’t fighting to be seen, but seemed pleased and grateful that the rushing water was all that could be seen, and enjoyed. I pressed my hands on the rocks and let the water rush over and around my hands. It surrounded my fingers and ever part of my hands. And they were no longer seen…only the water. And God said, “This is you. It isn’t important how others see you, but that they see ME.” As I prayed, I saw the water (GOD and HIS love) rushing through, over, and around me, through my brokenness. And all I could do was praise! That is what HE created me for. I am accepted in HIM. There is nothing I can do to earn it. There is nothing I can do of myself. It is all HIM. So don’t flatter me or give me any praise, for all of that belongs to GOD. May HE be seen.
