It’s a good thing I didn’t attempt to blog last night or this afternoon. That blog would’ve been full of things that Satan has been whispering to me since I’ve landed in DC. Things like “What are you doing on this team? You don’t have any gifts or useful skills. God can’t use you.” Now that I’m at launch and everything is becoming very real, I’ve allowed Satan to get into my heart and plant little doubts about my ministry on this team. This afternoon I was feeling very offended and unimportant in my team. Well guess what? God showed up and has used this evening to completely change my mindset and has instead been whispering words of affirmation and encouragement to me. God knew what I needed to hear this evening and totally revealed specific things to me that I never considered could be changed.
I’m a sensitive person so I tend to get offended and hurt fairly easily. Bill, our speaker and leader, spoke about coming to God with our offenses and laying them before Him. Those unintentional, assumed offenses are opportunities for growth. God says we can only be offended where we are offendable; so our first reaction to an offense should be to ask God why I’m being offended by that and what does it reveal about me? These words were straight up words from God directed to me. How am I supposed to find freedom in Christ until I find freedom in offenses? I always thought that being offendable was a part of me and not really something that could be changed. I see it differently now. God used Bill to teach me that HE has the power to alter EVERY aspect of my life, even things like my personality. God transforms. And I believe that’s what this year is going to look like.
And I say, bring it on.
