I walk along a path silently to find a warm spot along the side of a lake sheltered by trees. “Keep going,” He says, “You’re not there yet, just keep going a little further.” I walk for several more minutes, “Here you go.” I sit down in a warm spot at the edge of the lake, gazing at the mountains all around and the sun high overhead. I take off my pack and my shoes and sit for a moment, taking in the beauty of the creation around me. I take my Bible and journal out of my pack and begin reading and writing. “Stop, rest” I hear him say ever so quietly. I continue writing something about how I want to hear the Lord’s voice, and again He whispers,”Stop.” I stop, put down my Bible and journal and begin praying.”Will you just listen to me??” And then I realize, all God wants from me most times is to simply sit, rest, and listen to him. I get so caught up in doing things that I miss what God wants me to know. I don’t hear him because I never listen.
As I listen, I hear the Lord whisper to me our much He longs for intimacy with His daughter. He tells me how beautiful I am and how he yearns for a relationship with me. I think in my human mind, “Do You really love me that much?” It scares me that God wants to be so intimate with me, like a groom with his bride. That’s the kind of relationship he wants, even the fairytale, Song of Solomon type. That’s the kind of relationship God wants from his children. And I think I’m not worthy enough to be used by Him or to be known by Him. But, I rejoice! How can I keep from singing? He loves me! He wants to be with me! He wants to fill my heart and my soul! He wants to be the only one that satisfies me! What a Savior!
