So this past month, almost everyone on my team has seen a lot of growth, and no I don’t mean that we are all going to come back 6 inches taller. We have all experienced spiritual growth in a new way. And while I love to brag on my team and how much they’ve grown the ways that each of us has grown is something that I want for you to hear from them, so check out their blogs about their month in Honduras (you can find their blogs by clicking on their picture on the side of this blog).
This month for me I have been working through a lot past shame and guilt that was still left from a previous relationship that I didn’t realize I had. Throughout the race, I have been really focusing on identifying lies that are in my life and speaking truths over them. So this is lie that God revealed to me out of blue that I had held onto. I realized that there were things from that relationship that I wouldn’t talk about because I felt ashamed of it. I had taken responsibility for things that weren’t within my control and because of that I allowed his actions to make me feel less, bad about myself, and unworthy.
I brought this before my team as I was working through it and working through letting it go, so that they could hold me accountable for not picking it back up. That is so important because so many I let stuff go and lay it at the cross, but will run back to it and pick it up, so not truly letting it go and laying it at the cross.
As you might know, we helped build part of a children’s home last month as part of our ministry. Our team really felt like it was an Ebenezer for us. So for a last team time for the month we went out in to the middle of the partially build children’s home and dug a hole. It is there that we buried things that we were celebrating, and/ or letting go of for the month. I buried the celebrating of past hurt and abuse, shame and guilt, and full acceptance of the lessons that God is teaching me in this season of life.
When a battle was won in the bible they stopped and thank God right then and built an altar, not when the whole war was over or all the way at the end of the thing, but right then. So that is what we felt like we needed to do. We don’t need to wait till the end of the 11 months to celebrate our growth and how far we’ve come, We can and should celebrate it along the way.
