Currently I’m however many feet up in the air on my flight from Cambodia and I just woke up from a nap. (Fun fact: I fall asleep almost immediately when on an airplane). So, as I am coming back into consciousness I hear a familiar song that just has such sweet thought provoking words.
The song was Give Me Jesus. And I heard these words “Dark midnight was my cry, dark midnight was my cry, at dark midnight was my cry, give me Jesus.” And for me this immediately brought my mind to when I was in Thailand and the darkness there. The darkness of the lie that I was struggling to overcome and the person battle that I was fighting, and also the darkness of the bars and the people that I saw. I went to that place and relived a moment when I was literally sitting in the darkness of the red light district looking at all the brokenness absence of God and just cried out the God “where are you in this? Where are you in my battle with these lies? Where are you in this bar? Why does a place exist where these girls are sexually exploited so someone can fill the physical desire of the action of love, but they don’t feel the complete love that’s supposed to come along with the action of sex? Will these men and women ever feel the complete love of you God?” I thought about this plead with God and realized that was right in the middle of my race just like midnight is in the middle of the night. That was my dark midnight and Jesus was there.
Just like with the night there will be a morning. And in the morning give me Jesus then as well. “In the morning when I rise, In the morning when I rise, in the morning when I rise, Give me Jesus.”
The song closes with the poignant phrase “You can have all this world, but give me Jesus.” That’s a scary statement to let go of everything, but at this moment I’m not sure I want a part of this world, but My only want is for Jesus to walk through this life with me.
