Another emotional day – yet this one was different.
I woke up much earlier than I needed to. The house was quiet. It actually refreshed me and allowed me to have time with the Lord and talk to someone I dearly love! Whatever was upon me yesterday was gone. I was at peace and excited about the day ahead. A day to worship and come together as a body. An extended body…more and more WR alumni, family, continue to come into our lives! A wonderful start to the dark, gloomy, rainy day outside, although I have to admit – I was not ready for what was ahead.
We are all blessed to have Mike Paschall back with us. He knows us. He could tell that we were not ourselves. There was a heaviness in the room. He didn’t say much. Just that we needed to pray whatever was on our hearts.
I released “my” plans so that I could grab hold to HIS truth and promises. Plans change. I learned that this past year. When we think we have it all figured out, usually that’s when the curve ball is thrown. I realized how foolish I was to doubt what He says and to try to figure it all out on my own. I wept. Having time to just think and pray and rest is what I needed most. We prayed for and over each other.
Today’s tears were a release of burdens that are not mine to carry. The tears shed were for our brothers and sister’s in Haiti. Believers who are still worshiping God in the midst of their adversity. Many are giving what they have for the sake of others (and by now we all know what little they have). Their country may have been devastated, but their faith is not. They showed us all that “church” can be done anywhere. They are thanking God rather than cursing him.
God gave me a breakthrough and realization. Not only about Haiti but about having the “freedom” to not have to be anywhere at a certain time, except where God calls me to be. What a blessed and freeing thought. I may not have it all figured out. But who does? I always wanted to venture out and not know when I’ll be home. Doing what God calls me to do. To be available to go wherever, whenever. To leave everything behind, walking in the unknown, daily.
I desire to go to back to Haiti (something I said I would never do). I dream of returning to
Africa. I have a dream to live for God, no matter where that takes me or what it entails. I do not know when, but I know that when He calls, I will answer.
