Waiting
Waiting. Oomph. That word. How many times in life do you feel like you have to wait for something. Wait to see what college you get accepted into. Wait for your grades to come out. Wait to see if your crush asks you out. Wait to see why God puts you through trials. And that’s only college. I have not memorized many bible verses in my life but the one I memorized in college is a psalms where the man after God’s own heart wrote about his time waiting for God to answer questions. King David was a man who had to wait. For a long time and for many different reasons. Imagine King David crying this psalms out to God:
“I will wait on the Lord. My whole being waits. And in His word I place my hope.”
Wow. Like David, I have waited for answers that I never thought would come. But imagine David waiting. When I picture David, I picture a patient man. Waiting and asking God if he misunderstood what he was told to do. I picture a trusting man. A man that trusts that God is going to provide in ways that doesn’t make sense at that moment. But I would say that David grew so much in waiting because even though he was waiting he wasn’t complacent with sitting. David desired an intimate relationship with God. He trusted and knew that this relationship would bring greater things that he himself could not provide.
This next stage of life is scary to me. I was nervous about leaving America and the unknown of the World Race but now I find myself nervous to be back in America. I find myself beginning to crave control again. I want to find a house ASAP. I want to figure out my job situation ASAP. I want to daydream about decorating my bedroom. I have spent a chunk of time searching pinterest for bedroom ideas. I want to kayak, beach, pool, hang with friends, go to trivia and all the things back in Nashville. But what I am missing is something that David could teach us all. God has us in a place for a reason. And let me tell you. World Race is an amazing place to be. I have learned so much that I could not have learned without the race. I have learned to love even when language are not the same or when there are 7 people in one room. I could kick myself most days when I daydream about home while I sit in the mountains of Honduras. Why do we do it? Why do we crave something while God is providing all we need right now?
This season of the last three months living the life serving and loving others in various countries has led to me a lot of questions. I have five currently that I have been asking the Lord. I want to grow the most I can these next few months and I want to be 100% thankful in where God has me and not rush His plan for me or seek to know the future. I want my whole being to wait for the Lord and I want to place my hope in Him.
For now we only see a reflection as in a mirror. Then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully even as I am fully known.
1 Corinthians 13: 12
I am fully known by a God who wants me to know Him more. He wants me to sit with him and ask the hard questions. I know he wants me to grow this next season. And I want that for myself.
Two questions to leave you with:
In what areas is the Lord asking you to wait, trust and grow? He wants more for you. He wants you to trust that the more that more for you CAN be in this season that you are in.
What is the Lord preparing you for? Is He asking you to wait because he is growing and preparing you for that next part?
Two songs that have really helped in this stage:
Will Reagan: I can tell
Listen to the lyrics and see how He is rearranging things in your life so that you will become a better version of yourself.
I can tell you know better than anyone else. I can tell you love me that way. I can tell you’re rearranging everything inside of me. I can tell you love me that way.
Will Reagan: Not in a Hurry
Slow it down and realize that God is trying to talk to you.
I’m not in a hurry when it comes to your spirit. When it comes to your presence. When it comes to your voice. I’m learning to listen just to rest in your nearness.
sit. ask. trust.
