It’s been a while since I’ve written because I have been so busy, but I want to thank everyone who has supported me and fill everyone in on what the Lord has been doing in my life!
This past week was really great, but also very hard. I went out to Minnesota to meet my sweet baby sister (who is actually 3 and not really a baby). She’s super adorable and I’m so happy I was able to spend a couple days with her, but leaving her was so incredibly difficult. To be honest, it was killing me that I was leaving to go on the Race. Not that I didn’t want to go anymore, but seeing my sisters (I have three out there!) was really tough because I realized how long it would be until I see them again. I probably worry too much, but for some reason I feel like me not being with them means they’re not going to be taken care of. Obviously this isn’t true, but I kept getting frustrated with God that He was calling me so far away when I was finally going to have time to spend with them.
Well I’m still going. And here’s why.
Recently (within the past year and really within the past 5 or 6 months) I’ve gotten a little bit obsessed.. okay maybe a lot obsessed with everything organic. I started eating a lot healthier and started paying more attention to what I put in and on my body. Raw milk, drinking out of glass, no microwaves, and yes everyone… salad. I actually eat salad. (My family is probably in shock at this point.) I even tried to make cream cheese…”Tried” being the operative word in that sentence. I realized at one point that if I was actually going to make the change, I had to be all in it. I couldn’t maybe eat an organic banana here or there or maybe have a little extra water. That wasn’t going to make a big difference. The same rule that eating one unhealthy thing once in a while isn’t going to kill ya applies here too. Eating one healthy thing every once in a while isn’t going to make much of a difference. And so even though most of my friends and family think I’m crazy or they tease me for it… I decided to work a lot harder at it. And I love it! I even gathered eggs from chickens and let me tell you… probably one of the best days of my life.
So what does all of this have to do with the Race? I knew this from the beginning, but really applying it to this calling has been hard. I have to be all in. There’s no in between. I have to put all my trust in the Lord, that He is going to be taking care of the ones I love, and that I am obeying His call. I realized how much I love my sisters, and how even though I’m leaving my younger siblings, I’m going to be serving so many other children around the world, which was a really encouraging thing for the Lord to reveal to me.
Someone shared a quote with me the other day that said:
“God often uses our deepest pain as the launching pad of our greatest calling.”
It really spoke to me, because it was exactly what the Lord had been teaching me in that moment. Even though the pain of separation from my siblings will be with me, the Lord is going to use it to do incredible things for His glory! I would appreciate if you could be praying for me in this. Thank you!
Jenna Sisson
