There’s been a lot going on in my heart lately with training camp just a little over a week away, and launch creeping up day by day. I’ve been having a lot of anxiety thinking about saying goodbye to everyone and everything I know for a year. Yes, it’s only a year, but there is so much uncertainty, and if you know anything about me, I don’t do well with uncertainty. Doubts have been creeping in, and I recently found out that a majority of my squad mates are feeling the same way. It’s hard.
Today, my boyfriend called me to ask me to help jump his car. After an unsuccessful 20 minutes of trying to get his car to start, we call a tow truck. The boys I nanny had swim lessons, so as we were leaving to go to them, my power steering goes out and I can’t drive my car. Within an hour of each other, both of our cars are out of commission. I was so frustrated, especially since I’ve had over $2,000 worth of repairs on my car in the past six months, and this specific part is on recall. It was just a bad afternoon.
Throughout this whole process, I kept reminding myself that God is good. God is faithful, in EVERY circumstance. I’ve been having all this anxiety about leaving and saying goodbye, and this was a wonderful reminder that no matter how broken my heart is in having to leave and say goodbye, that God is faithful and he uses every situation to further the kingdom.
Yes, saying goodbye is going to possibly be the most difficult thing I’ve ever had to do, but there is peace in God, and I know this is part of His plan in my life. No matter the situation, God will take care of it. Not only will He take care of it, but Romans 8:28 says He will work all things together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to his purpose.
So what does that mean? It means I don’t have to worry. It means that no matter how upset I get, Jesus knows and understands, and He will b my protector and my comforter. It means that there is no use in getting upset over worldly things like a broken car. It means that Jesus can mend every broken relationship and broken heart through his love and grace. It’s incredible and powerful, and even with the brokenness I’ve felt this week, I’ve also never felt more joy or certainty that my God is good, and my God has a plan, and this is all part of it.
If you’re feeling anxious or broken, rest in 2 Tim 1:7: God doesn’t give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of POWER, LOVE and SELF-DISCIPLINE. He is faithful, now and forever.
God bless,
Jenna
Proverbs 3: 5-12: Trust in the Lord with all your heart?, and lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways submit to him,?and he will make your paths straight.
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