It’s time to be real… This past week has been a
rough one. There have been a lot of tears, a lot of frustrations, and a lot of
time just sitting and thinking. But I guess at the end of the day I can say
that I have been challenged and stretched and reminded how much I need the Lord. So all in all, while painful, it’s
been good.
The other day, I felt like the Lord was saying we need to
go on a date. A date? What would it look like to go on a date with God? Since I
do work at Starbucks for the time being, I would imagine we would go there and He
would order a straight black Americano (strong and bold, I mean that sounds
pretty Godly don’t you think?!). But I guess that’s not the point…
The past week, God
has been reminding me how much time I spend trying to make other people’s
relationships with Him right and healthy, but how little time I actually spend
on my own relationship with Him. It almost gets to the point where I seem
to be living through other people’s relationships with God; to where mine is no
longer my own. Do I even know who God is anymore? I mean,
I know who He is, but who is He to me? So God tells me that He wants Him and I
to get alone, to talk about us, to show me where I need to be stretched and
grown.
And this whole time… I am constantly reminded that it’s
not about other people and I, it’s not about this world and I, it’s about Him
and I. That’s all that matters…Him and I, the
rest will follow. My relationship with Him should mean everything. Who am I
serving? Not this world, not my friends, not my family, not my peers…I am
serving Him. Why do I care so much what the world thinks of me? I have
the God of the Universe on my side and His opinion is all that matters. In the
end, the world is not going to fulfill me and what I need, that would be the
Lord’s job.
So, Lord I am sorry for neglecting the most important relationship of
my life. All I want in this life is to know you deeper, is to see You for who
You really are. If seeing you clearer means that You have to break me, then by
all means do it!
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