My teammate Hillary had us do an activity writing a pretend letter from the enemy and one from God. It is very raw but I feel like it helped remind me of some important truth. It goes like this…
Dear Jenna,
look at you, pretending you’re making a difference for God. Ha! You are still just as fake as ever. Why did you even come on the race just to be the same as you have always been? You are selfish, vain, cowardly, a liar, and not growing at all. You might as well give up because you do not add value to anyones life. In fact, all you do is make everyone uncomfortable and as soon as you walk in the room they wish you were not there. What a joke that you think you will ever find people who truly accept you. You are fat, ugly, and all of the make-up in the world can’t hide that. It’s so pathetic how you wake up early to seek your God. You bother everyone with your alarm clock and you are spending time with the walls. Nobody back home misses you. They are all much better without you and glad you left. The rest of the race and the rest of your life is going to be awful. Bondage and shame are ahead. You would be better off going back to your old lifestyle or dead.
-your adversary
Those are some of the lies that have crossed my mind lately. I do not recieve them because they are just that, lies. Praise God that He gives us the power to take our thoughts captive and choose truth. This is what I feel like my God says about me…
Dear daughter,
Oh, how I love you. How I delight to hear you speak to me in the morning. There is nothing you will ever or could ever do to stop my passionate all consuming love for you. I am so proud of you, my child, for stepping so far outside of what you want to follow me. Your are right where I want you. I am going to use you to change so many lives and you may not know it but I already have. My sweet child, embrace my warm loving arms and rest your weary soul in me like that little girl who rested on you today. There is so much freedom in me, you have it, all you have to do is continue to walk in it. I have so many amazing plans for you. It won’t be easy my child, but it will be so worth it. You are my joy and my delight and I want to be yours. Delight in me, my daughter, my sweet one. You are pure and holy in my sight. You are more beautiful to me than the flowers blooming in the spring and the mountains that I created. The people back home are on their own beautiful journey with me. The rest of your race is going to be incredible. You will learn and grow beyond comprehension. Your fate is eternal life with me, my love. Dont worry about anything. You can trust me, for I will never leave you. I loved you at your darkest, I love you now, and I will love you forever.
Love, Abba
