Thank You all who actually read my blog! I also wanted to thank you all for being so kind and patient while waiting for another blog post. This month has been so busy and time has escaped me. Also this past week I was laying in bed sick for a few days, nothing serious just some stomach issues that medicine, water, Gatorade and rest easily fixed.
The first day that I felt sick I thought that it was just God wanting to spend some time with me because I haven’t been taking the proper time with him and just shutting down everything around me just to be with him. When I actually managed to have that time with him I had a lot to say to him and his response back was very simple and to the point.
God is doing some amazing things here in Nicaragua and I cannot believe that we are approaching the end of our month. This month I have been stretched in ministry in ways I could never imaging. I have never gone house to house meeting people and praying over them, I have never imagined building relationships with people that don’t understand a word I am saying or even vise versa but the Lord works in mysterious ways. I also could not even imagine that through my blog posts that 1. people actually read it 2. that just by sharing what my new life is like that God is working through me and into your lives, the lives of my readers, in ways I NEVER would have imagined.
I honestly cannot wrap my brain around everything that is happening here and in my life and in the lives of those around me. An update on where I am at spiritually is that this month my main focus is to be okay with my emotions. I hate expressing emotions and I see them as weakness, and as vulnerability. I am currently reading this book called Emotionally Healthy Spirituality by Peter Scazzero and the chapter that I am in the middle of is about emotions, perfect timing. I’m learning so much about myself in ways that will help mold me into the person that God created me to be. Because lets be honest here I am not perfect, I don’t have my life all figured out, and as much as I would like to think I know who I am and who God created me to be, I actually don’t know. “The problem is that when we neglect our most intense emotions, we are false to ourselves and close off an open door through which to know God.” How can I go around sharing the Gospel and the love of God if I’m closing myself off to feeling any form of emotion?
I am finding happiness, pain, joy, peace, and so much more in every person that we meet in the villages and every time I find a new emotion I see God in that moment. When I see God I feel the strongest emotion of love and feel an overwhelming sense to make that person feel loved because they truly are, he takes over my heart and it hurts to not to be able to love them more because they deserve it and need it, we all do.
So thank you all for your support, prayers, and donations. You all make me feel loved and I pray that God shows that same love to each and every one of you because we all need and deserve his love and don’t let anyone tell you different. If you are needing more love or want to know more about this love or just want to talk, ANYONE can email me and I would be happy to share Gods love with you, speak truth over you, talk about what Gods love is doing here, doing in me, anything at all. You can reach out to me via email: Jenrae’s Email
Also Here are some photos from the other day we got to have some fun and do some face paint.
1.The Crew and I just leaving a house visit.
2. Best friends that has their faces painted
3. Group photo of all the kids after the face paintings
4. Anna and her friends
5. Libby having a great laugh with her friend
6. Luke (Cool Cat) and I (Cat Burglar)
