This month I am learning a lot about living in ministry 24/7. This month I am learning that the race is about balance. I have a job and opportunity this month to the treasurer for my team. I have to balance our finances everyday. I love numbers and organizing, makes my brain think hard and I like working my brain. I have to balance numbers daily but also balance what living in ministry daily looks like. I have to balance, personal time, time with the lord, time with my team mates, time with our boys this month. Balance. Balance. Balance!
Everything I do involves time, Do I even have enough time in the day to balance everything out? Probably not! But I will confess I am not perfect, trying to get everything properly balanced each and every day doesn’t always go to plan. I am learning that each day is different and each day i need to stop and evaluate what is needed. I might have my time with the lord in the morning and spend time with the boys all day and have a good team time, but feel worn out because I didn’t cut out some time for myself to rest a little. I might have me time, treasurer time, team time but forget God time. Each day sometimes I might function fine not having me time or team time. Some days I get exhausted and frustrated without it. Balance.
Each day I reflect on what I need to get me through that day. I am learning also this month that it is okay to take time away to help better balance myself and I have to convince myself not to feel guilty about getting my life together. Living in Ministry means figuring the balance for your life and living it fully in the way God created you to live it. God knows the proper balance for each and every one of our lives, and it is up to us to figure it out and live it.
We are taught at the beginning of this month to dies to ourselves, but what does that really look like? Living just like Christ? Living for Christ? Not always doing what we want? Being more selfless? More trusting in the Lord? Being more loving? See I think dying to ourselves comes back to balance, not just balancing my life out everyday but to others as well. You can find the perfect balance to yourself, but now what about your community? Sometimes you have to altar your balances because when a community is involved now it is all about balancing give and take. You have to give yourself and also take things for yourself. The race teaches us about balance. Month 5, I’m not perfect, but I’m growing in it, i think i always will.
