Heading into Wo-Manistry last month, I was empty. I was drained. I was done.
I was in this place where I felt like I’d been pouring out and pouring out into both ministry and my team. I wasn’t getting poured into much and I felt like a lot of my pouring out had been in vain. My heart had run dry and I didn’t know if I had it in me to pour out anymore. So I stopped pouring into others for a couple weeks, I stopped giving my 100% and apathetically didn’t love very well.
Week 1 in Thailand, I was journaling about this very thing and remembered a story I’d heard at Launch. The story was about Noe. Noe knew that when he felt empty, he just needed to sit with the Lord to be filled up. Recalling this, I was immediately convicted. I’d been waiting for others to fill me for months and was hoping my new team of women would be the answer. I’d been soaking up every little drop I could get from Jay, my squad leaders, coaches and mentors. Somehow, these little tidbits never seemed like enough and I was never satisfied. Becoming convicted in this, I immediately took the time to sit at the foot of the cross and let my Savior fill me up. I literally sat on a quiet roof top, sang out “Fill Me Up, God” over and over and opened my hand to receive the blessing from my Father. He was so faithful and my heart soon began overflowing with His love and joy.
That’s when everything changed.
I joyfully poured into others again. I gave my 100% all the time. I loved really well. Why?
…because the Creator of the universe poured out His Son's precious blood for me, how could I not pour out what He had gifted me with?
…and since God always gives us more than we could possibly ask or imagine, He started using the women around me to pour into me too. It was beautifully orchestrated. The Lord was pleased when I sought Him first and then awarded me the desires of my heart. He is SO good.
“Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” –Ps. 37:4
So what emptiness or voids are you feeling? Have you asked the Lord to fill you up? Have you sat quietly with Him? Have you searched His Word and His heart?
“Do not worry about your life…but seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” –Matthew 6:25,33
