I’m sitting here on my day off alone. Being alone lately has equated to being anxious. I have never really dealt with this feeling, but lately it’s my constant emotion. I am anxious that God won’t show up, that He won’t be faithful to what He promised. When I applied to the World Race, God and I had a conversation about finances. He promised that He would pay for it.
The Race is all I can think about, I even dream about it every single night.
They told me that this experience would teach me more than anything else. They are already right. This is teaching me patience, trust, and an unrelenting pursuit of the Throne of Grace.
This morning during my devotions I was reading in Matthew.
Chapter 14:18-21 is the story of the 5 loaves and 2 fish. I’m sure you’ve all heard that story. I’ve heard it a million times, but this time I heard the Lord speaking a new thing to me.
When all the disciples saw was an obstacle with very little provision Jesus asked for them to bring what they had. Jesus had the audacity to tell them to sit the heck down, then He does the IMPOSSIBLE. He takes what little they have, He tells them to sit down (stop working), and then He fills the need… No, he exceeds the need.
I believe that He will exceed my need.
- My prayer this week is that I would trust God more,
- that there would be peace in my heart,
- that God would come through,
- that people would be positioned to partner with me in this mission,
- that they would be emboldened to do exactly that.
Thank you for your continued prayers and giving hearts.
All my love,
Jenessa
