The definition of unworthy: Not deserving effort, attention, or respect.
When I speak before a church or write a blog all eyes are on me, I am the center of attention. In those moments I can choose to make it all about me and what I want from this trip or I can make it all about God and His purpose.
I am not worthy of the spotlight.
I am not deserving of 500 people reading a blog about just me.
When people speak to me about this trip I hear them say things like how amazing I am for going on this trip or how they admire me for giving up my life and going to serve. I am NOT amazing and I AM unworthy of being admired for the this trip. I am only doing what God has called ALL of us to do.
I am unworthy of this calling but I am choosing to trust Him.
There are around 200 of us young adults that will surrender it all for the one who deserves it, come September. We will head to the nations to fulfill his purpose around the world. We are all going on this journey not because we are more loved or more qualified but because we realize we are not worthy of the life he has given us. We realize that there are people around the nations who are deserving of his love. We believe in his kingdom and his word. We realize that we are doing what God has called us all to do. We have changed our mindsets that we are worthy of what we get, to we are unworthy of what he has given us.
So, as I prepare my heart for the next 11 months I am thankful God choose me to die on the cross for, he changed my life and transformed my heart. I am preparing for an even bigger change in my heart and in the way I view His love.
I will leave you with the lyrics I have had to remind myself over and over about.
I'm so unworthy, but still you love me.
Forever my heart will sing of how great you are.
All glory, honor, power is Yours, Amen.
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God has made this a very good time in my life to send me to the nations. I know some people aren't at a point that it is not a time for you to Go. If you feel God leading you to go but you can't leave please prayerfully consider donating to my trip and "Go" with me to the nations. Your financial donation with allow me to share His love among the nations and you will be going on this journey with me through that donation. You can do that by giving through the SUPPORT MY CALLING tab or by sending a check to me at::
Jena Haney Adventures in Missions
403 Eden Street or 6000 Wellspring Trail
Hickman, KY 42050 Gainesville, GA 30506
