LAUNCH IS FINALLY HERE!!!!!
I am finally in DC and beginning this crazy journey. Where has the time gone!
This week has been very interesting and filled with many struggles along with many joys.
Struggles: 1. Packing 2. Goodbyes and 3. PACKING!
Here is what my living room floor looked like 2 days ago…
Throughout the process of packing I felt extremely attacked by the enemy. I began to feel doubt, fear, and lonliness.
"What was I thinking?"
"Am I crazy?"
"This sounded like a good idea, but now I don't know."
"Am I cut out for this?"
"What have I gotten myself into?"
All of these things kept going through my head. Spinning, swirling, attacking, until finally… I broke down.
While crying alone in front of my dog (as if in a Lifetime movie) I began to pray. I kept repeating to myself…
"God, you are BIGGER than this! Help me, help me, I need YOU! Please show up in BIG ways, starting TODAY!"
And what happened… God showed up!!
I began talking myself through packing. I found myself talking in the third person and encouraging myself through each step of the way. I felt like I was going crazy! If anyone was around me they would've thought about sending me to the loony bin. But I know who was really talking to me. I know who was guiding me through each step. I know who is my encourager… and it's GOD!!!!
And finally…
BOOM!!! Done! That's everything in 2 bags and a case!
Joys: 1. God loves me 2. God loves me 3. God loves me
He's got me… no matter what!
Thank you God for continuously loving me, even through the mess, even through the begging, even through the failures. I love you more than words could ever express. Here's to the start of a new chapter. Giving my life to YOU!
Launch: Now until Thursday…
Leaving for Mozambique FRIDAY!!!!!
