I’ve never been a morning person, but God told me to start my day with Him. To listen to Him. To ask Him how He sees me instead of trusting what I think or how I feel in the moment. I need to start my day with God. Even though I fight it or push spending time with Him away until later.
But He wants me now. He wants me to seek Him first thing in the morning, to go into His arms. What does that mean for me?
To go outside or somewhere alone, where I can be awake and spend time with Him. With His word and a journal. To seek Him. To put Him first. To draw near to Him. To ask Him how He sees me so I can walk in the truth of who I really am.
It’s a battle. It’s a fight. If it was easy, then everyone would be perfect and no one would doubt who they are or where they are on their journey. But it is a fight. It is a battle. Sometimes I have doubts. Sometimes I don’t feel like it. Sometimes I want to hide.
But I need to press in, to seek His face so I can see the truth of how much my heavenly Father loves me, how much He desires me.
I need to acknowledge the doubts and declare what the truth is. Rebuke the lies. If it is a thought about people not wanting me around, or not caring for me, that is a lie, that is not from God. It doesn’t mean everyone is my best friend. But it means God cares for me and puts other people in my life to show me this care too.
Am I showing those around me His love and acceptance? His grace? Or am I only seeking to meet my own needs most of the time or nearly all of the time?
That doesn’t mean to be ashamed. It means to walk in the light. To see that there is a new way, a better way. His way. It’s not in my own strength that this could be realized. It’s God, revealing things to me every day. Showing me the wonders of His love and acceptance. That He loves me just as I am and doesn’t want to leave me alone. Doesn’t want me to stay in the dark. Wants to set me free so I can walk with Him in the radiant light.
Lord, Let me walk with you in the light of your wondrous love and grace for me today and share this light with others. Amen.
