There is a story in the Bible that I've read more than any other story. In 1 Samuel there is a story about a woman named Hannah. She cannot have a child and she prays earnestly for God to have mercy on her and give her a son.
What if God calls you to something that you just don't know how it's possible? I've felt a calling in my heart to be a mother since I was a child. I'm not a child anymore, and in fact sometimes I worry that I am nearing the age that even having a child will be impossible.
And then God tells me to pray. After all this time, I am to pray again for this? And here is how He answers: Go, leave your home and family and friends. Interesting answer.
And then while in Malaysia in my little warehouse a pastor prayed over me and said some things that no one just knows about me. He was very accurate. And then God spoke to him to call me a mother.
I didn't know whether to be grateful and encouraged or frustrated and angry. This month I know God has put in my heart to learn about faith, but when it comes to this what does He mean? Does He want me to continue to be a "mother" like lady to people and children I meet? I hope not. I've already been there, done that. How can I find the faith I need to believe this prophecy is for me?
Do you know how old I am? I am 35. I am unmarried. I am in fact traveling around for another 7 months making no commitments to any man and I have no one to go back to either once it's over. I fear that my heart is overflowing with more doubt and any faith of promise from God and prophecies is being squeezed out forever.
But He asks me to believe.
He tells me do not worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow has enough trouble for itself. See the birds of the air. They do not spin or toil and God feeds them. See the fields and how God clothes them. Consider the lilies and how He clothes the fields with them. They do not worry about what they will wear. How much more will your heavenly Father take care of you.
So once again I take my worries and fears and doubts and bring them to the door that I continue to knock on.
You have said well done to me. Will you call me favored? Will you remember me? Will you do what you promised. Will you let me impact generations?
I will knock on your door today and not worry about tomorrow. And tomorrow I will do the same.
