When I first heard about the WR I questioned why this stuck in my head? I wasn't exactly sure why but knew I needed to apply. When I applied I questioned why I was doing this? I knew that if God wanted me to go I would be accepted. When I got accepted I really freaked and said "Are you sure God????" Who am I to go spread Gods word? Who am I to tell others of his love when for so long I denied it? How can I pray for others when I haven't prayed for myself or people close to me in so long? Why is God asking this of ME?? Are You sure God? Me? YES JEN! YOU! God calls us all to go spread his word, to heal the sick, to cast out demons, to baptize in the name of the father, son and the holy spirit. So what makes me think I'm getting outta this? 🙂
I will say God has opened me up and begun to heal me of things I never expected. These past few weeks (since I finally surrendered to him) have been so intense. He has proven is love for me over and over again. He has been there this whole time with his arms wide open, waiting for his daughter to return. He has blessed me and encouraged me! Am I nervous about the WR? yes…but who wouldnt be? I've never been out of the country let alone been on a missions trip…I'm about to Go to 11 countries for an 11 month long missions trip! Intense!! Am I scared about raising $15,500 in less than 6 months? But of course! But I also know that when God calls, God provides! Up to this point I have received more donations from COMPLETE STRANGERS than people I know! God has showed me that its not who you know, How many friends you have, or how close you are with your family/friends…the ONLY relationship that matters is your relationship with him. Put your trust in him and he will provide…even through strangers! 🙂
Push past the fears I have, from small ones like holes in the ground for toilets to large ones like leaving behind everyone and everything I know for 11 months I am so excited!!! My fears are so small compared to this excitement I have! I'm learning to reley soley on God, Let him handle my fears and in return he has given me a passion for this trip! I'm so very excited about being able to share Gods love, to heal the sick, to give hope to the hopeless, to love the unloveable! Our God is such an awesome God! And he's been proving it to me on a daily basis!!
I ask "Are you sure God??" "Just Go" he says, and I say "BRING IT ON!!"
