I am sick of looking ahead! This whole World Race journey has me running around like a chicken without a head, looking for the missing body part.
I am sick of worrying about tomorrow or what might or might not be in six months. No I won’t worry about what tent to get for the Race or if I have the right converter. It takes my peace away, it makes me worry about tomorrow and it takes the whole joy out of the journey.
“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.”
Matthew 6:34
Fact is my tomorrow is not promised, my next hour on earth might not even be part of Gods plan. What do I know what will be in six months from now! I remember one of my friends squad mates past away a couple of weeks before launch! I wonder how differently she would have lived her last days if she would have known Jesus would take her home. Would she have worried about fundraising, the perfect backpack, peoples opinions or advice she doesn’t really want to hear.
The Race will be a life changing once in a lifetime experience. I will cry, laugh, jump for joy and will probably be an emotional wreck more than I would prefer. I will see,breathe and experience Jesus like never before. My heart will be broken and mended by my Healer and Savior. I will never be the same!
But right now, I am still me! I still want to live life in the moment, with my friends, at my church, feeding the homeless and having Portillos after. Right now I still wanna be the girl God created me to be. The girl that loves soy lattes and tears up thinking about Gods unending love. The girl that does silly faces and fantasizes about warm Chicago winters.The girl that speaks Truth when noone else does. The girl that needs to give herself more Grace because Jesus has done it all.
The World Race will be a tiny part in a piece of a big puzzle. There is a life before the Race and there will be a life after the Race. People will still be there, people will still love me. I am done obsessing about every little thing that I might need for my trip! I am not in control anyway! God is the One that watches over me and that will never change, no matter how much I want to be prepared for the Race! Doesn’t obsessing about details takes the whole purpose away anyway? I can already see how God will make my backpack and all my comforts misteriously disappear if I don’t start TRUSTING Him instead of a Apple MacBook!
“Don’t worry about anything, instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience Gods peace which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard our hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7
I am done worrying about the future and instead will live in Gods peace. I will enjoy this beautiful day God has blessed me with. The World Race will still be there six months from now! Today is not the day!
“For everything there is a season, a time for every activitiy under heaven.”
Ecclesiastes 3:1
Jen
