Until you realize you were made by God and for God nothing in life will ever make sense and nothing or noone will ever satisfy you.
Your life is not about you. God didn’t create you so you can get your will, your needs, wants and desires met. The reason you exist is to be turned into an image of Jesus, just how God intended it to be from the day of creation. Unfortunately we can’t be transformed acting like three year olds, throwing temper tantrums, wallowing in self-pity, having bad attitudes and becoming resentful against others and God. Sometimes we just don’t get what we want. Letting go of selfish love hurts.
“And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires” Galatians 5:25
The truth is dying daily or better hourly hurts.It hurts so much sometimes I want to bang my head against the wall. God continously reveals the garbage in my heart. It is rotten and it stinks. It clings to me like a tick, sucking the life out of me. Loving God more than myself hurts.
My flesh tells me to “run”, while Jesus says “come”. My Savior convicts me, cleans me and refines me. The only way to follow Him is to pick up my cross and die over and over again. Only through full dependence on Him can I fight the war in my head.It is exactly as Paul says in his letter to the churches of Galatia.” The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other so you are not free to carry out your good intentions. ” Galatians 5:17
Being walking, breathing love vs walking in the flesh is a battleground. “The love that is patient, kind and doesn’t demand it’s own way. The love that is not jealous, boastful, proud or rude. The love of God never gives up, never loses faith and preserves through every trail.” 1Corinthians 13:4-7.
My love is weak, broken and fragile. My love is proud and wants its own way. It is full of selfishness! Thanks to amazing grace and a God that never gives up on me His love covers my mess. Thanks to His patients and strength I want to choose His love even if it hurts. Love does cover a multitude of sins and there is no greater love than His.
Jen
Luke 9:24
